A NEW CD – Timpane.com presents “HELLO, I LOVE YOU, GOODBYE vol. 2

Hey Barnsonians..

I wanted to post here first that I have a new CD available for download at Timpane.com.
You can also get a copy on CD if you snd me a mailing address.

It is available for download at
http://www.timpane.com/mp3

“HELLO, I LOVE YOU, GOODBYE vol 2” is the second compilation of Love songs by Justin Timpane (me!!) written between 1992 and 2005. The Album has ten tracks, with five new recordings of older material, two remastered songs from readmission, and three new songs entitled “Only Begun”, “Miracle”, and “One Day”.

Hey Barnsonians..

I wanted to post here first that I have a new CD available for download at Timpane.com. You can also get a copy on CD if you snd me a mailing address.

It is available for download at http://www.timpane.com/mp3

“HELLO, I LOVE YOU, GOODBYE vol 2” is the second compilation of Love songs by Justin Timpane (me!!) written between 1992 and 2005. The Album has ten tracks, with five new recordings of older material, two remastered songs from readmission, and three new songs entitled “Only Begun”, “Miracle”, and “One Day”.

The first volume was created in 2000, and much of the feedback asked “what about this song or that song” – hence, volume 2.

Because there is no real description of the songs anywhere, here are a few synopses..

“Only Begun” – 2005 – A new song for Kelly (my wife) that emphasizes the turning points upcoming.. the “breakwave” of kids, 30, and getting older.. oh, and listen for the “Kelly’s song” hook.

“Long Long Time” – 1994 – A song for an old girlfriend, I like it because it has a lot of poetry to it.. “Imagine I am the sand and you are the ocean. Together and apart, ever reaching to the sky”.

“Teardrops” – 1995 – A song for when the old girlfriend and I broke up.. a simple idea about sitting in the rain (John Cusack Style) reminiscing on all the future plans that will never be

“Forever Yours” – 1997 – A song I wrote for Kelly when we were still dating.. just a good pop hook.. “I want to kiss the tears in your eyes.”

“The Last Time” – 1998 – Previously on “Can You See Yourself” a sad song I wrote after a really sad dream, but I hated the old version of it.. so here is a mournful version that people say is the best song on this album.

“All Before” – 2001 – The first song written on “Readmission” – this is actually the same recording, but remastered. The concept: How do you write a love song for someone you’ve written love songs for and have it not get old?

“Everything’s Wonderful” – 2003 – Also from “Readmission, also an old recording remastered. This song is the only 3rd person song on the CD, telling the story of “Zachary and Jennifer”, and their lifelong romance.

“Miracle” – 2004 – A simple piano song about how really cool it is to be happy with someone. Barnson.org has featured it before.

“One Day” – 2005 – A song for Kelly, outlining what its like to be impressed by someone who changes and grows in really cool ways, and its a fun poppy hook.

“You Are” – 1992 – A song that is 14 years old.. whew!! I and others always liked this song live, but the three previous recordings left something to be desired.. so I have created a definitive version that I think is the best song on the album.

I invite feedback, and really, I just like to share with this talented group what I’ve been up to!

ONE GOOD RAP DESERVES ANOTHER

Hey! I loved matts link in the last post – AWESOME..
So I thought I’d share this for all you Narnia Fans.
IT RULES. (Has one bleeped curse word – unheard)

http://www.youtube.com/watch.php?v=zLElfJ9YCh0

Hey! I loved matts link in the last post – AWESOME.. So I thought I’d share this for all you Narnia Fans. IT RULES. (Has one bleeped curse word – unheard)

http://www.youtube.com/watch.php?v=zLElfJ9YCh0

Belief vs Unbelief part 99 – another point of view.

I thought I would post an interesting email I received from my Unlce John.. he’s an editorial writer for The Philadelphia Inquirer, he writes on religion for that same newspaper, and also contributes to Scientific American. So, when I got this email, in the light of our many conversations on this topic, I thought I’d post it.

It’s the end of absolutes for both for religion and materialistic unbelief

I thought I would post an interesting email I received from my Unlce John.. he’s an editorial writer for The Philadelphia Inquirer, he writes on religion for that same newspaper, and also contributes to Scientific American. So, when I got this email, in the light of our many conversations on this topic, I thought I’d post it.

It’s the end of absolutes for both for religion and materialistic unbelief Oct 23, 2005

BY JOHN TIMPANE It’s the end of absolutes for both religion and materialist unbelief. Neither has the knockout card, the open-and-shut, slam-dunk, airtight case. And that should knock both of them back a step. Each has something to say to the other, indeed the same thing: “Give up your fundamentalism – it’s toxic, and it’s hurting you. ” Healthful words now, when evolution and intelligent design are being debated in Dover, Pa. Both belief and unbelief may be much qualified in the coming decades. In a trend already 50 years old, belief increasingly may get hauled out of church, as believers feel less and less need for an institutional lens through which to believe.

Materialism (sometimes called “naturalism,” sometimes “rationalism”) is the belief that all that exists is the visible, concrete universe of matter. That’s it – nothing else, no spirit realm, no divinities, no afterlife. There is a fine, august tradition behind materialist unbelief. But – especially in the minds of some who believe they are representing or defending science – it has taken on a dismissive energy. In years to come, materialism may actually benefit from admitting it’s just a guess, more like other beliefs than most materialists admit.

At least, such are my conclusions after participating in the Templeton-Cambridge Journalism Fellowships in Science and Religion. This summer, 10 journalists attended seminars for two weeks at Cambridge University in England, went home for five weeks to prepare presentations, and returned for a last week of seminars, presentations, debate, English ale, and amazement at our chance to study God and science in 15th-century splendor.

Many stars joined us: evolutionary biologists Richard Dawkins and Simon Conway Morris; cosmologists John D. Barrow, Owen Gingerich, and Paul Davies; theologians Russell Stannard, Nancey Murphy, and Ronald Cole-Turner. They gave brilliant talks, argued with one another, with us, and with the cosmos; challenged us to stretch our minds and write better about science, religion, and the interface (if there is one!) between the two.

All my friends want to know: So who won?

Nobody. And that should temper all those who think their team already has. Despite the trial in over, the current American conflict is not between “science” and “religion. ” It is, to quote Karen Armstrong, author of A History of God and other books, a conflict between tightly defined subsets: “those who adhere to the scientific theory of evolution and those who believe that the biblical story of the six-day creation is literally true. “As she points out, this boils down to “a struggle between two religions. “The culprit on both sides in this American standoff is the mental habit of fundamentalism itself. And it could well hobble both sides. Book-based religious fundamentalism will, I suspect, gravely wound the cause of religion. It holds sway today among about 20 percent of Americans, but that’s only now. In many minds, the underhandedness and the coercive truculence of religious fundamentalist rhetoric confirm that religion is bad. It gives individuals no choice, nowhere to go, no way to grow. That’s why, when science enlarges our view of the cosmos, one often hears fundamentalist yelps.

The current uprising may be a harbinger of the death of religion for many people. We’ll continue to be a believing people, but more and more of us will do our believing out of doors. Religious fundamentalism got beat up good at the Templetons, especially by religious people. Fraser Watts, who teaches theology and science at Cambridge and is co-director of the fellowship program, said: “I am a follower of Christ, not the Bible, and if I’m forced to make a choice, which I hope I am not, I will choose Christ. “But religion is not the only fundamentalism in the room. Let us now turn to the other bad boys: the fundamentalist materialists.

Some say, “I believe in science. Evidence. Empirical demonstration. What I can see. And that’s it. “But many materialists don’t stop there. Fighting hard, against religion and other forms of “ignorance,” they claim their view is scientific. When, strictly speaking, it is not. It strains the proper bounds of science to enlist it for these purposes, and most honest scientists will say so. Rightly does biologist Kenneth R. Miller (who testified against intelligent design in the Dover trial) complain of materialists who go “well beyond any reasonable scientific conclusions that might emerge from evolutionary biology. ”

Miller cites biologist William Provine, who wrote: “Modern science directly implies that there are no inherent moral or ethical laws, no absolute guiding principles for human society. . . . We must conclude that when we die, we die, and that is the end of us. ”

Science doesn’t imply anything about morality, ethics, or afterlifes. It just doesn’t go there. But Provine sure wants it to, and then vaults to “must conclude. ” Materialists often idealize science. They speak of science, not as it is, but as they wish it were. They pretend science is a unitary practice with a stable, complete, sufficient view of the cosmos. They pretend – beyond the capacity of logic – that you can draw hard and fast definitions between what is science and what is not.

I heard many such pretenses at the Templetons, and you cannot know how irritating that is. Scientific practice bypasses what can be seen, tested, or demonstrated all the time. The structure of the benzene ring came to August KekulĂ© not through an experiment, but through a dream. No one has ever seen such a string, but many physicists now have high hopes for “string theory” (in which the structure of the universe is made up of resonating submicroscopic strings). Cosmology relies on arguments based on what cannot be seen (dark matter) to explain what can.

Sometimes that works, sometimes not. Science is a search for what works -and sometimes that’s empirical, and often it’s not. It often proceeds through undirected play. Thank you, Yale eurobiologist Robert Wyman, for saying so: “You get curious about something and you mess around. That’s what science is in the beginning; you mess around. ”

It’s amazing how angry people get when you say such things. That doesn’t make science any more wonderful, its triumphs any less spectacular. Some people just insist on a purity that science does not have and never did. Such insistence hurts them, their babes-in-the-woods politics, and any chance of discussion. They should drop it, acknowledge the humanity of their endeavor, and listen. Materialism is a good guess. A very intelligent good guess. It was none other than zoologist Richard Dawkins, an eminent nonbeliever, who told us that materialism can’t really close the argument against God. So even he knows it. I wonder how many other materialists would admit the same.

The high point of the Templetons, for me, came after a stellar presentation by cosmologist John D. Barrow, including an explanation of multiverse theory, which argues that our universe is not alone but is only one of about 10 550 universes. Dawkins raised his hand and, after praising what he had just heard, asked why anyone would want to look for divine characteristics in the universe. To which Barrow replied: “For the same reason that somebody might not want to. ”

A throwaway line? No: the single most honest, most incisive thing I heard at Cambridge. Barrow spoke the thing neither institutionalized belief nor institutionalized unbelief will admit – the great scandal – that neither side can close the deal, leaving it to you and me. There are wonderful reasons to believe – and not to believe. Go out, look around, keep your mind and senses wide open, and decide for yourself; for nothing – no book, no experiment, no theory, no minister in his smoke and vestments – can make up your mind for you. It’s just you and the cosmos within and without. And throughout this lifelong quest, if ever you feel your mind hardening – don’t let it happen.

That’s how belief and unbelief got into this mess in the first place.

JOHN PROCTOR IS DEAD – or – You can never go back again – UPDATED

Boy oh boy did I love Wayward Sun. Despite the fact that they were just essentially a teen garage band, they were my favorite band in High School, the way some people loved Nirvana or Billy Joel. But now certain members of the band have kind of said “no thanks, we’ve done that”. I didn’t get it. You have a chance now to take what you were good at in High School, iron out the kinks, and make it better. Why not do that?

I get it now.

Boy oh boy did I love Wayward Sun. Despite the fact that they were just essentially a teen garage band, they were my favorite band in High School, the way some people loved Nirvana or Billy Joel. But now certain members of the band have kind of said “no thanks, we’ve done that”. I didn’t get it. You have a chance now to take what you were good at in High School, iron out the kinks, and make it better. Why not do that?

I get it now. In 1993, I played onstage, in my senior year, the role of John Proctor in Quince Orchard’s production of “The Crucible”. It got me a lot of credibility, I did a great job, and it galvanized my desire to act. Despite this, it was a high school play, I didn’t know crap about life, and it was ultimately a flawed performance.

Last weekend, I auditioned for Reston Players’ production of “The Crucible”. I wanted to play hale, but my Proctor was good enough in an audition to get me called back repeatedly once again for the lead. I was ecstatic, and for much of the audition, it seemed clear that the role was mine. As we neared the end though, we got to the meatier scenes, and I was doing passionate, precise redings.. that were a little out of context of what was going on. Thinking back, I was doing the same line readings I had done at the age of 17, and looking for the same responses. I never got them.

I did not get Proctor. I barely read for Hale. This production of the Crucible will roll along without me, and perhaps its just as well. I’ll be doing another play or film soon.. something that is new to me. As an artist, I have committed to doing new work. Taking something someone else made and making it my own. I already did my Proctor.. and doing it again would be doing an imitation of myself.. a remake.

So for me, the dream of playing Proctor again sometime is dead.. you can’t go back again. Maybe you shouldn’t. Maybe for me Hale should always belong to Mike Lanahan, Proctor should always be a teenager trying his best to impress his friends and detractors.. Maybe the best version of “All Over again” will always be the one on “The Right Of Way” – and maybe that has less to do with intrinsic quality, and more to do with what it meant way back when.

GEEKFAN – or – Why Star Trek, Why Buffy, and why not let it go?

A geek, yes. There can be no question. Star Wars, Star Trek, Buffy, Angel, Firefly, the list goes on. Escapist asction shows with a twist of impossibility, either sci-fi or fantasy. I love them. I do. many do.. but I am a fan.

I’m not a costume wearing fanatic (although I was paid to wear the costume as an actor), its not about that. Its not necessarily the action, which is cool.. but can be found anywhere. Why be a fan, why care about fictional characters who are as unlikely as vampires and androids – and why do I want all of these things, all now defunct, all now finished, to continue?

A geek, yes. There can be no question. Star Wars, Star Trek, Buffy, Angel, Firefly, the list goes on. Escapist asction shows with a twist of impossibility, either sci-fi or fantasy. I love them. I do. many do.. but I am a fan.

I’m not a costume wearing fanatic (although I was paid to wear the costume as an actor), its not about that. Its not necessarily the action, which is cool.. but can be found anywhere. Why be a fan, why care about fictional characters who are as unlikely as vampires and androids – and why do I want all of these things, all now defunct, all now finished, to continue?

It is a conversation Rowan and I have had.. he is also a person who enjoys all these things… but not a fan. To him, these are fictional people, to be let go easily, and to allow to leave when it is time. Not so for me. I want these things to continue, and I think I know why.

The realm of fantasy, in order to suspend disbelief, requires one to leave “here”, and go to another place. You need sunnydale for Buffy… you need the future for Trek. I am someone who is not so happy with the here and now today. And today, I pulled my Star Trek nemesis DVD out of the dust it was gathering to finally watch, of all things, the interviews with the cast, to hear them say how close they feel. I went on to watch some more of it, just because, “being transported” to this familiar place felt safe, and for a little while I could go on a journey, and feel like I had people there I knew.

People like “Friends” not for the jokes, but for the relationships. Like Cheers, or MASH, people like to leave there lives, and watch the dramas of others. For me, its easy to let that go. When Friends ended.. new york was still there. For my shows, when they end.. the entire universe of the shows come to an end.

I invest in the fantastical because a lot of times in my life, it gave me a place to go to where the things that sucked for me were very far away.. and I suspect many of us feel the same way. So, I wait for the Star Wars TV show, the Spike movie, the Serenity DVD, and for Trek to somehow find its way out of the toilet. Why? Because these are universes I like to go to. ports of call that are closed to me, and on nights like tonight, I could use 42 minutes of time focusing on something else than the real world.

20,000 People are dead.

In Afghanistan and Pakistan. Earthquake. I should be riveted.

And I care. I do.. but I’m so desensitized now, it makes me sad.

9-11, Tsunami, Katrina.. and this is huge, second only to the Tsunami.. and there will be minimal Red Cross donations- cuz we all gave to Katrina.

Man, would we have an opportunity here to be the hero, show these people we will be there for them. They hate us, and they’re hurting.. and if we step up and help.. maybe they’ll see we’re not so bad.

In Afghanistan and Pakistan. Earthquake. I should be riveted.

And I care. I do.. but I’m so desensitized now, it makes me sad.

9-11, Tsunami, Katrina.. and this is huge, second only to the Tsunami.. and there will be minimal Red Cross donations- cuz we all gave to Katrina.

Man, would we have an opportunity here to be the hero, show these people we will be there for them. They hate us, and they’re hurting.. and if we step up and help.. maybe they’ll see we’re not so bad.

Problem is, we are. We all look and sigh and say “how awful” – but if anyone is like me.. my brain hurts from all of it.

I mentioned in an earlier blog that I have just emotionally shut down about huge tragedies. I can’t wrap my head around them – but I only remember this happened when I log onto yahoo news. I feel terrible, like a “typical selfish American”, and I don’t know what to do about it. I guess I’ll send some money, and I’ll say a prayer or two.. but more than that.. I want to feel as devestated as i did for lesser things. I want that little piece of my soul back.

HELP ME CHOOSE – or – Saving Face

Hey all!

Okay, I just got my proofs for the new headshots, and I need to choose (pretty quickly) which shots I think will get me more work.

So, please help me out, I need one for boring print/training video/corporate commercial work, and one for quirkier, theatre/indy film work. But I want both to work for either if necessary – so help me choose!

http://www.timpane.com/headshot.html
There’s an email link to send your picks!

Hey all!

Okay, I just got my proofs for the new headshots, and I need to choose (pretty quickly) which shots I think will get me more work.

So, please help me out, I need one for boring print/training video/corporate commercial work, and one for quirkier, theatre/indy film work. But I want both to work for either if necessary – so help me choose!

http://www.timpane.com/headshot.html There’s an email link to send your picks!

Many thanks!!

ENDER’S SHADOW – or – The Shadow Series Reviewed

The Title of the first book of Orson Scott Card’s “Shadow” series of books “Ender’s Shadow” is well deserved. This series will be forever compared to the 1980’s novel which spawned their universe “Ender’s Game”, and rightly so. “Ender’s Game” is an amazingly complex novel written at a third grade reading level, until you reach the end and realize, no, its not. The trilogy that followed, “Speaker for the Dead”, “Xenocide”, and “Children of the Mind” were captivating, although sometimes bizarre metaphysical stories, but they always had the heart (Ender and Valentine).

The Title of the first book of Orson Scott Card’s “Shadow” series of books “Ender’s Shadow” is well deserved. This series will be forever compared to the 1980’s novel which spawned their universe “Ender’s Game”, and rightly so. “Ender’s Game” is an amazingly complex novel written at a third grade reading level, until you reach the end and realize, no, its not. The trilogy that followed, “Speaker for the Dead”, “Xenocide”, and “Children of the Mind” were captivating, although sometimes bizarre metaphysical stories, but they always had the heart (Ender and Valentine).

Having just finished “Shadow of the Giant” tonight, I can tell you that the second series of books is better than the first. Still READ ENDER’S GAME FIRST!! “Ender’s Shadow” takes place at the same time as Ender’s game, but from a different point of view, and it is as good a book, if not a little better, a little darker, a little more adult. (There will be no spoilers here, and Ender fans, you know what I don’t want to spoil). The trilogy of books that follow “Shadow Of the Hegemon”, “Shadow Puppets”, and “Shadow of the Giant”, play out like a big game of Risk, with major military moves played out on a global scale.. yet underneath it, like the “Ender Series”, there is heart, in the characters of Bean and Petra.

I closed the cover of “Shadow of the giant” tonight and my wife was asleep, and I was choked up and had to tell her I loved her. It is that kind of storytelling, and it is heartwarming, and heartwrenching (from th every beginning). For Ender fans, the supporting cast of “Ender’s Game” is all here.. the Wiggins, Peter, the whole Jeesh… but you will soon want to spend your time with the other characters, mostly bean and Petra, and the vile Achilles, from the first moments of “Ender’s Shadow”.

For the uninitiated, here’s the best order to read the books..

Ender’s Game Ender’s Shadow Shadow Of the Hegemon Shadow Puppets Shadow of the Giant Speaker for the Dead Xenocide Children of the Mind

This is also the chronology of the books, although not the order they were released. You could also read them in the release order, but either way, pick up Ender’s Game, and if you “used to be a fan” but got lost in the Piggies and the Ansibles.. then come back, start over with Ender’s Shadow (which you can totally do and skip the Ender series) and go from there. Its worth it..

Okay.. time to finally crack “The Half Blood Prince” and see what everyone is talking about.

REJECTION – or – Why i suck

Okay, first off, I don’t want any names thrown about on the board if you know the project I am talking about.

I am working on a musical project right now, for some people whose opinions I really care about. I am writing music for a company with which I have a very positive relationship, but for whatever reason, while they have always liked my music before, I just can’t seem to get it right this time around.

Okay, first off, I don’t want any names thrown about on the board if you know the project I am talking about.

I am working on a musical project right now, for some people whose opinions I really care about. I am writing music for a company with which I have a very positive relationship, but for whatever reason, while they have always liked my music before, I just can’t seem to get it right this time around.

Its frustrating, and disheartening. The people for whom I’m making the music, just don’t seem to dig my new stuff, which is their right.. but I can’t seem to tweak it to the point where they do.

Its not their fault, and they are being very nice about it.. and well.. still.. all the composers on here (Matt, Ben, Sam, Kevin, Rowan, Brusco?, more..) know that each piece of music has a little piece of you in it. You wouldn’t send it out to be heard if you weren’t a little proud of it, and thought “yeah, theyll dig this” – and when they don’t, it kinda hurts..

Yeah, I know, suck it up, brush it off, back to the drawing board, bootstraps and stiff upperlips, but its hard creating art and having it not resound with its intended audience.

So, anyone out there ever have a similar experience, where they just couldn’t get it quite right, or made a piece of art they thought would be really good, but it just fizzled?

WHY I LIKE WINE – Or – Y isle ike whine

I’m becoming a wine snob, I think..

That is to say, that I think that drinking wine makes me a snob. In high school I was anti-alcohol, in college, I was a non-drinker who binged rarely, in my early 20’s I loved beer, by 25, I liked making mixed drinks..

But in the last two years, I have grown to appreciate the tastes and textures of wines, and I feel a little fru-fru about it. I mean, holding thaing that little glass stem, savoring a piece of dark chocolate or cheese.. its not exactly beer and pizza.

I’m becoming a wine snob, I think..

That is to say, that I think that drinking wine makes me a snob. In high school I was anti-alcohol, in college, I was a non-drinker who binged rarely, in my early 20’s I loved beer, by 25, I liked making mixed drinks..

But in the last two years, I have grown to appreciate the tastes and textures of wines, and I feel a little fru-fru about it. I mean, holding thaing that little glass stem, savoring a piece of dark chocolate or cheese.. its not exactly beer and pizza.

Now, I have a myriad of wines in my house – from 2 boxes of Corbet Canyon, to a nice oregon Pinot Noir and a good 20 dollar bottle of Sauvignon Blanc. The boxes and the 1.75 liter bottles I keep to have with dinner, an accent to the food, but like the breadsticks, really, not part of the real dining experience. The bottles, especially the good ones, are for right before I go to sleep – with the dark chocolate or a shortbread cookie – or if company is coming over – these are meant to be tasted, and I love it.

I like pinot noir because I saw Sideways, and I learned to appreciate it. I know its cheesy, but its true. It starts with one flavor, and like Willy Wonka gum, it changes while in your mouth, and changes again after the swallow – its wonderfully complex when its good.

I also like Sauvignon blanc for the same reasons when I want a cold white wine. I will have Cabernet or Chardonnay with food, because I dont want tastes overwhelmingly complex in those cases.

Now, I make a point to have no more than a glass a night, except with company, and then its no more than 3 or sometimes 4, and I take a break 2 nights a week, subbing in herbal teas. So its not the alcohol.. besides there are easier ways to get drunk.

No, its just fun to have this tasty entertainment and a shared experience with people you like. and if its snobby or not too masculine, so be it.. its still fun.

That all being said.. I would love good ideas for tasty wines (include prices).. here are some of mine..

BOX – It will neve rbe very good, but Corbet Canyon is better than franzia.

1.5 Liter inexpensive Bottles – Stay away from Gallo, try the Sutter Home, it will be pretty good for the price

Inexpensive Regular Bottles – Meridian makes a nice Pinot, Turning leaf makes a nice Cabernet. And my new discovery, Yellow Tail, I haven’t had a bad one yet.

Finally, I found hat Oregon Pinot Noirs are generally better than Californias.. I don’t know why.

Okay, any takers?

(Christy, do you like pie?)