Email Love

So I finally sat down the other day and did an inventory of my email. I set up every filter, every folder, every sub-folder to file away messages into neat categories. I came to a startling realization:

So I finally sat down the other day and did an inventory of my email. I set up every filter, every folder, every sub-folder to file away messages into neat categories. I came to a startling realization:

I really don’t get a whole lot of email.

I mean, I get over a hundred messages a day. But once I’ve filtered out the spam, the mailing lists, the advertising (much of it opt-in, I’m ashamed to say, and I’m not going to opt out because I like reading ads about cool audio hardware and stuff), and whatnot…

I’m down to about 1-5 emails a day.

That’s kind of pathetic, really. I read dozens of emails a day (skipping about a hundred or so), and only a couple are actually addressed to me. I did a similar thing with my work mail, and found that I only ever received personally-addressed mail when I sent some for one reason or another.

How much of your mail is really yours?

What do Wesley Crusher and I-Pods have to do with each other?

You all can talk about intelligent design all you want; I’ve got larger issues to address. Such as: it has taken me a while to realize why I’ve been so disturbed by the sudden rise in popularity of I-Pods and the like. At least in DC, you can’t go ten feet on any sidewalk without seeing someone with that glassy look to their eyes, little wires dangling from their ears, paying just a little too much attention to the little white plastic box in their hand…

You all can talk about intelligent design all you want; I’ve got larger issues to address. Such as: it has taken me a while to realize why I’ve been so disturbed by the sudden rise in popularity of I-Pods and the like. At least in DC, you can’t go ten feet on any sidewalk without seeing someone with that glassy look to their eyes, little wires dangling from their ears, paying just a little too much attention to the little white plastic box in their hand…

Then, while in Ann Arbor last weekend for a meeting, I caught ST:TNP, episode 106: The Game. A classic episode, featuring the indomitable Wesley Crusher fresh from the Academy, the lovely but out-of-her-element Ashley Judd in a career-challenging role – it’s no Best of Both Worlds, but then what is?

And it all became so clear, as I sat there watching this ep: Someone brought back an I-Pod from Risa, those aliens with that lame forehead ridge are just plumping us up for a quick takeover while we’re plugged into the latest podcast from someone-needs-a-life, and in the not-too-distant-future, we’ll be hoping Data comes through with that lame watch-the-birdie save before the top of the hour.

Not to offend any Barnsonian I-Pod worshippers, but the whole thing for me got pushed over the edge after spending a few moments in a college town this past weekend. In DC, we’ve got Blackberries and federal subpeonas (thrilling party conversation-starter by the way). But it seemed that Ann Arbor had been overrun by Apple and no one noticed. You could almost hear Steve Jobs cackling like Dr. Evil in the background.

In line at the largest Starbucks in North America (I mean it, you couldn’t see the far side of it), all over the bookstores, all over campus, in the three restaurants I ate at, at the hotel, and on and on. Seriously, someone needs to pull a Wesley on those things to determine if they aren’t hitting the pleasure center of the frontal lobe, because there was just a little too much love for the I-Pod there.

Isn’t silence golden to anyone anymore?

Just my two cents. It’s been one of those weeks so far.

Closing arguments in the Dover ID case

OK, Coffee Break’s Over, everybody back on your heads again! (See Joke 19, warning: foul word.)

I’ve been following the Dover, PA lawsuit by parents against school-board-mandated instruction in “Intelligent Design” closely. This is, in my opinion, a crucial case for preserving public school science classrooms from future domination by individual religions, and for preserving the rights of parents to educate their children in religious matters without governmental interference. For others who may not have been following the case with similar rapt interest, here are some relevant links:

OK, Coffee Break’s Over, everybody back on your heads again! (See Joke 19, warning: foul word.)

I’ve been following the Dover, PA lawsuit by parents against school-board-mandated instruction in “Intelligent Design” closely. This is, in my opinion, a crucial case for preserving public school science classrooms from future domination by individual religions, and for preserving the rights of parents to educate their children in religious matters without governmental interference. For others who may not have been following the case with similar rapt interest, here are some relevant links:

  • Chief school board proponents of ID caught perjuring themselves
  • More details of ID proponent lying under oath. OK, you obviously can’t throw out an entire case due to some moron lying in court. But it looks really, really bad when you corner the defendant into admitting that he passed money under the table — and lied about it under oath — in a clumsy attempt to disguise his involvement.
  • The plaintiff’s closing arguments. (PDF format, Adobe Reader required) This closing argument, IMHO, is very readable, reasonably brief, and summarizes in very clear form why Intelligent Design is a religiously-motivated, unscientific rehashing of Creationism, which violates the Establishment clause of the Constitution and should not be taught in public school science classes.
  • This New York Times article (free registration required) documents how the Thomas More Law Center shopped around for five years looking for a school district willing to promote Intelligent Design in science classroooms in order to inspire a lawsuit like this one.

Here are my thoughts and speculations:

  1. It looks like many ID supporters are bitterly disappointed by the self-appointed champions of classroom ID in PA. Between the defendants’ inability to tell the truth, well-documented Creationist motivations, and hand-in-the-cookie-jar efforts to launder money in support of their religious aims in public school, I have to agree: evolution supporters would be hard-pressed to find more inept public officials supporting Intelligent Design.
  2. Elections were yesterday, and several of the positions of the ID supporters are up for grabs. Returns aren’t due for some time, but I strongly suspect the Dover voters will express their disappointment with the existing Board in a very direct fashion. I know I would.
  3. While most supporters of science will score this as a victory, I’m certain Creationism in public schools will come up in court again. Probably sooner than the 30 years it took for this to come back from the previous Supreme Court decision.
  4. I think this decision works more to preserve their parental rights than public-school instruction in ID. I think of it in terms of some other principle — say, the “Intelligent Thunder Theory”, with Asgard and Thor supporters advocating it be taught in science classrooms to explain the weather. Without special pleading, it just doesn’t hold up to scrutiny.
  5. I’m certain more rednecks will get their 15 seconds of fame on the TV decrying how American government and “activist judges” are perverting the government into a god-hating secular state in opposition to popular will. Never mind that religion thrives in America mostly because of church/state separation.

Mmmm… pie…

All right, after a thoroughly enjoyable and mentally exhausting debate (congrats on Short Story status everyone), what movies are everyone looking forward to seeing this upcoming season?

High on my list:

Harry Potter IV – My favorite of the novels, the previews look @*#$(% righteous… definitely going to be there for the midnight showing. And is it wrong to have a crush on Emma Watson? It’s not a “boy I’d like me some of that” kind of crush, it’s a “she’s the kind of girl I’d like my son to bring home” kind of crush, if that makes sense.

All right, after a thoroughly enjoyable and mentally exhausting debate (congrats on Short Story status everyone), what movies are everyone looking forward to seeing this upcoming season?

High on my list:

Harry Potter IV – My favorite of the novels, the previews look @*#$(% righteous… definitely going to be there for the midnight showing. And is it wrong to have a crush on Emma Watson? It’s not a “boy I’d like me some of that” kind of crush, it’s a “she’s the kind of girl I’d like my son to bring home” kind of crush, if that makes sense.

Narnia — Loved the books, Lewis is still one of my favorite authors… and the previews also look phenomenal. WETA, those geniuses behind LoTR, have provided the environment of the film (I always hesitate to use “special effects” with WETA, their work is so artistically driven that somehow “special effects” sounds somehow crass). And, this is ironic, I saw “Constantine” last week and the one thing that really struck me was the fabulous actress who played Gabriel. She’s playing the White Witch. Lots to look forward to. I know Justin doesn’t want to see the movie because, and I quote “it has talking animals.” On one hand, I totally understand the worry, the last thing we want is Aslan meets Babe. On the other hand, how can we have Narnia without talking animals? That’s sort of one of the central points of the story, in’nit?

Zorro — I saw it this weekend, and my soul wept. Then it breathed white.

Serenity — coming out Dec. 20 on DVD, baby! Right in time for Christmas. Shiney!

Any other gems that folks are looking forward to? Early Oscar predictions, anyone?

Men are Smarter than Women… Trashed.

Early this summer, major news outlets crowed about some preliminary research revealing that men are, on average, cleverer than women. This research made a big splash with headlines around the world.

In an unusual move, the journal “Nature” published a critique which not only rebutted the conclusions and data used by the British team in the original study, but thoroughly trashed it.

Early this summer, major news outlets crowed about some preliminary research revealing that men are, on average, cleverer than women. This research made a big splash with headlines around the world.

In an unusual move, the journal “Nature” published a critique which not only rebutted the conclusions and data used by the British team in the original study, but thoroughly trashed it.

The Observer noted how unusual it was for a published article in a scientific journal to so thoroughly and angrily debunk the claims made in a competing journal:

Science journals rarely attack studies at the same time as they are being published by a rival. Neither do they often use strong or intemperate terms. A delayed and measured approach is the norm in scientific circles.

The article further noted that, like Andrew Wakefield’s controversial MMR vaccine/autism link debacle of some years ago, the researchers involved seemed more interested in garnering publicity than in peer review:

They did not release their paper to fellow academics immediately. Instead, they gave it out to journalists two months before it was scheduled to be published in the British Journal of Psychology this month.

I’m skeptical. Any time a study comes out — like the previous study by the same researchers which indicated white people were generally smarter than black — which seems to reinforce existing prejudices, I’m doubly skeptical. The truly groundbreaking stuff seems to be the things which blows away common misconceptions, not the stuff which looks like it’s trying to reinforce racial or sexual stereotypes.

I came across a useful guideline on the entire process of meta-analysis by Vivienne Parry:

“[C]heck the statistics first. If you are quoted a risk increase, check what the risk was before. A 100% increase of a very small risk is still a very small risk. Find out what the absolute risk rather than the relative risk is – in other words, what the real numbers of women dying, or getting cancer or whatever, are. “Again, you may find that this huge risk turns out to be one extra woman per 100,000. Nasty, but not as bad as you thought. If no one can give you real numbers, then feel free to ignore it. It is also useful to find out who is behind the information. Do they have something to sell or an agenda to push? If they do, be doubly suspicious.”

Belief vs Unbelief part 99 – another point of view.

I thought I would post an interesting email I received from my Unlce John.. he’s an editorial writer for The Philadelphia Inquirer, he writes on religion for that same newspaper, and also contributes to Scientific American. So, when I got this email, in the light of our many conversations on this topic, I thought I’d post it.

It’s the end of absolutes for both for religion and materialistic unbelief

I thought I would post an interesting email I received from my Unlce John.. he’s an editorial writer for The Philadelphia Inquirer, he writes on religion for that same newspaper, and also contributes to Scientific American. So, when I got this email, in the light of our many conversations on this topic, I thought I’d post it.

It’s the end of absolutes for both for religion and materialistic unbelief Oct 23, 2005

BY JOHN TIMPANE It’s the end of absolutes for both religion and materialist unbelief. Neither has the knockout card, the open-and-shut, slam-dunk, airtight case. And that should knock both of them back a step. Each has something to say to the other, indeed the same thing: “Give up your fundamentalism – it’s toxic, and it’s hurting you. ” Healthful words now, when evolution and intelligent design are being debated in Dover, Pa. Both belief and unbelief may be much qualified in the coming decades. In a trend already 50 years old, belief increasingly may get hauled out of church, as believers feel less and less need for an institutional lens through which to believe.

Materialism (sometimes called “naturalism,” sometimes “rationalism”) is the belief that all that exists is the visible, concrete universe of matter. That’s it – nothing else, no spirit realm, no divinities, no afterlife. There is a fine, august tradition behind materialist unbelief. But – especially in the minds of some who believe they are representing or defending science – it has taken on a dismissive energy. In years to come, materialism may actually benefit from admitting it’s just a guess, more like other beliefs than most materialists admit.

At least, such are my conclusions after participating in the Templeton-Cambridge Journalism Fellowships in Science and Religion. This summer, 10 journalists attended seminars for two weeks at Cambridge University in England, went home for five weeks to prepare presentations, and returned for a last week of seminars, presentations, debate, English ale, and amazement at our chance to study God and science in 15th-century splendor.

Many stars joined us: evolutionary biologists Richard Dawkins and Simon Conway Morris; cosmologists John D. Barrow, Owen Gingerich, and Paul Davies; theologians Russell Stannard, Nancey Murphy, and Ronald Cole-Turner. They gave brilliant talks, argued with one another, with us, and with the cosmos; challenged us to stretch our minds and write better about science, religion, and the interface (if there is one!) between the two.

All my friends want to know: So who won?

Nobody. And that should temper all those who think their team already has. Despite the trial in over, the current American conflict is not between “science” and “religion. ” It is, to quote Karen Armstrong, author of A History of God and other books, a conflict between tightly defined subsets: “those who adhere to the scientific theory of evolution and those who believe that the biblical story of the six-day creation is literally true. “As she points out, this boils down to “a struggle between two religions. “The culprit on both sides in this American standoff is the mental habit of fundamentalism itself. And it could well hobble both sides. Book-based religious fundamentalism will, I suspect, gravely wound the cause of religion. It holds sway today among about 20 percent of Americans, but that’s only now. In many minds, the underhandedness and the coercive truculence of religious fundamentalist rhetoric confirm that religion is bad. It gives individuals no choice, nowhere to go, no way to grow. That’s why, when science enlarges our view of the cosmos, one often hears fundamentalist yelps.

The current uprising may be a harbinger of the death of religion for many people. We’ll continue to be a believing people, but more and more of us will do our believing out of doors. Religious fundamentalism got beat up good at the Templetons, especially by religious people. Fraser Watts, who teaches theology and science at Cambridge and is co-director of the fellowship program, said: “I am a follower of Christ, not the Bible, and if I’m forced to make a choice, which I hope I am not, I will choose Christ. “But religion is not the only fundamentalism in the room. Let us now turn to the other bad boys: the fundamentalist materialists.

Some say, “I believe in science. Evidence. Empirical demonstration. What I can see. And that’s it. “But many materialists don’t stop there. Fighting hard, against religion and other forms of “ignorance,” they claim their view is scientific. When, strictly speaking, it is not. It strains the proper bounds of science to enlist it for these purposes, and most honest scientists will say so. Rightly does biologist Kenneth R. Miller (who testified against intelligent design in the Dover trial) complain of materialists who go “well beyond any reasonable scientific conclusions that might emerge from evolutionary biology. ”

Miller cites biologist William Provine, who wrote: “Modern science directly implies that there are no inherent moral or ethical laws, no absolute guiding principles for human society. . . . We must conclude that when we die, we die, and that is the end of us. ”

Science doesn’t imply anything about morality, ethics, or afterlifes. It just doesn’t go there. But Provine sure wants it to, and then vaults to “must conclude. ” Materialists often idealize science. They speak of science, not as it is, but as they wish it were. They pretend science is a unitary practice with a stable, complete, sufficient view of the cosmos. They pretend – beyond the capacity of logic – that you can draw hard and fast definitions between what is science and what is not.

I heard many such pretenses at the Templetons, and you cannot know how irritating that is. Scientific practice bypasses what can be seen, tested, or demonstrated all the time. The structure of the benzene ring came to August Kekulé not through an experiment, but through a dream. No one has ever seen such a string, but many physicists now have high hopes for “string theory” (in which the structure of the universe is made up of resonating submicroscopic strings). Cosmology relies on arguments based on what cannot be seen (dark matter) to explain what can.

Sometimes that works, sometimes not. Science is a search for what works -and sometimes that’s empirical, and often it’s not. It often proceeds through undirected play. Thank you, Yale eurobiologist Robert Wyman, for saying so: “You get curious about something and you mess around. That’s what science is in the beginning; you mess around. ”

It’s amazing how angry people get when you say such things. That doesn’t make science any more wonderful, its triumphs any less spectacular. Some people just insist on a purity that science does not have and never did. Such insistence hurts them, their babes-in-the-woods politics, and any chance of discussion. They should drop it, acknowledge the humanity of their endeavor, and listen. Materialism is a good guess. A very intelligent good guess. It was none other than zoologist Richard Dawkins, an eminent nonbeliever, who told us that materialism can’t really close the argument against God. So even he knows it. I wonder how many other materialists would admit the same.

The high point of the Templetons, for me, came after a stellar presentation by cosmologist John D. Barrow, including an explanation of multiverse theory, which argues that our universe is not alone but is only one of about 10 550 universes. Dawkins raised his hand and, after praising what he had just heard, asked why anyone would want to look for divine characteristics in the universe. To which Barrow replied: “For the same reason that somebody might not want to. ”

A throwaway line? No: the single most honest, most incisive thing I heard at Cambridge. Barrow spoke the thing neither institutionalized belief nor institutionalized unbelief will admit – the great scandal – that neither side can close the deal, leaving it to you and me. There are wonderful reasons to believe – and not to believe. Go out, look around, keep your mind and senses wide open, and decide for yourself; for nothing – no book, no experiment, no theory, no minister in his smoke and vestments – can make up your mind for you. It’s just you and the cosmos within and without. And throughout this lifelong quest, if ever you feel your mind hardening – don’t let it happen.

That’s how belief and unbelief got into this mess in the first place.

Hitched.

Congratulations to Sammy G on his wedding to… erm, what shell we call her? Let’s call her Shammy, after the awards given out this weekend 🙂

Congratulations to Sammy G on his wedding to… erm, what shell we call her? Let’s call her Shammy, after the awards given out this weekend 🙂

Christy and I left our kids at home under the care of Marsha, Christy’s mom. And we set off for Minneapolis on Friday afternoon. Long about 1:00 AM, we finally rolled into our hotel room and crashed.

I’ll leave it to Christy to tell the sordid tale of trying to find a clean hotel room. I’m about to hit the sack, so I’ll have to either update this blog or add more later. Regardless, Mazeltov! We had a fabulous time, and hope you have a fabulous lifetime together.

— Matt B.

Science Myths We Shouldn’t Ignore

Today, as I drove into work, I found myself listening to “Coast to Coast AM“, a radio program which seems to be entirely devoted to pseudoscience, superstition, and conspiracy theories.

However, this evening they were discussing the topic of the world’s oil supply. With the recent release of a book called “Black Gold Strangleold”, the authors were on the program to discuss the oil situation. While some of their points held water, one of their assumptions stood out to me as anti-science superstition that I felt it was important to debunk.

Today, as I drove into work, I found myself listening to “Coast to Coast AM“, a radio program which seems to be entirely devoted to pseudoscience, superstition, and conspiracy theories.

However, this evening they were discussing the topic of the world’s oil supply. With the recent release of a book called “Black Gold Strangleold”, the authors were on the program to discuss the oil situation. While some of their points held water, one of their assumptions stood out to me as anti-science superstition that I felt it was important to debunk.


Myth 1: Oil Reserves

The Myths:

  1. The world’s oil supplies are dwindling rapidly as fossil fuels are depleted, and we should prepare for an economic disaster within the next 20-40 years,
  2. the contrary myth: the world’s oil supplies are generated via abiotic processes; the “oil shortage” is an invention of oil companies to keep prices artifically high.

THE REALITY: Whether oil is abiotic or organic in origin, the fact remains that it is produced in large quantities only on geologic scales of time: millions of years. Both myths are wrong: we neither seem to be facing an imminent oil shortage within our lifetimes, nor do we have a virtually limitless supply of petroleum available within human-scale timeframes. We have a very large, but limited supply, of oil available to drill out. This oil will become increasingly expensive to access as existing wells refill more and more slowly as the overall pressure drops. What conclusions you draw from that are up to you in regards to conservation and other topics, but it’s a foregone conclusion that demand will continue to grow, while access to easily-pumped oil will continue to diminish. Simple economics dictates that the price will continue to rise. However, pumping technology seems to be working in our favor to keep the costs of drilling increasingly-difficult wells within reason, so it may be that the overall amount of oil drilled continues to rise for many decades.


Myth 2: Global Warming

The Myths:

  1. Human emissions have caused greenhouse gasses to increase, resulting in global temperature increases. These temperature increases cause stronger hurricanes and rising ocean levels, resulting in massive natural disasters.
  2. The Contrary Myth: Human emission have nothing to do with the rising temperatures; they are merely part of a regular cycle of rising and falling average temperature.

THE REALITY: Both human emissions and natural cycles are at play here. The question is really: how much does each account for? This isn’t something we’ll have enough hard data on to answer within the next decade, but it’s a pretty good guess we’ll have an answer within two. In geologic time, that’s a tiny sliver. Attempting to gauge long-range weather patterns by the short time frame of human experience and ability to measure the weather is not very useful. More useful are the tree-ring analyses currently underway to determine historic weather patterns from ancient trees and gauge the extent of the warming. So far, the results are still indeterminate. That we are experiencing a global warming trend is indisputable fact at this point: the poles are melting, and billions of acre-feet of water are being dumped into the oceans from the antarctic ice shelves. The ocean level is rising, hurricane ferocity is increasing, and other residual effects from a rising ocean are being felt. That reducing human emissions will also reduce the greenhouse effect is also indisputable… the question is just whether or not that reduction will be statistical noise in the overall warming trend.


— Matthew P. Barnson – – – – Thought for the moment: Sick Building Migration: The tendency of younger workers to leave or avoid jobs in unhealthy office environments or workplaces affected by the Sick Building Syndrome. — Douglas Coupland, “Generation X: Tales for an Accelerated Culture”

Rosa Parks, Internet Research

In the news today: Rosa Parks is dead at 92. Sad news for her relatives and fans, but it got me thinking about the law, and how I really love how the Internet has given the common man such an ability to learn. In a lot of discussions with friends and online opponents, I’ve ended up discussing law. Not being a lawyer, of course, I’ve had to go for common-sense answers. Today, finally, I found something online that was really helpful:

Malum in se vs. Malum prohibitum.

In the news today: Rosa Parks is dead at 92. Sad news for her relatives and fans, but it got me thinking about the law, and how I really love how the Internet has given the common man such an ability to learn. In a lot of discussions with friends and online opponents, I’ve ended up discussing law. Not being a lawyer, of course, I’ve had to go for common-sense answers. Today, finally, I found something online that was really helpful:

Malum in se vs. Malum prohibitum.

In short, Malum in se is something which is illegal because it is inherently recognized as wrong, such as murder, rape, and theft. Malum prohibitum, on the other hand, refers to things which are illegal because they further a policy or doctrine, such as speed limits, immigration policies, and copyright regulations.

I realize that a first-year law student already knows this stuff. Oh, well.

Anyway, it clears up a lot of my confusion for me regarding ethics. I’ve often tried to prove the point that sometimes breaking a law is the correct ethical decision, even though it may land one in jail. For instance, violating the current draconian copyright laws can be, in my opinion, justified in certain circumstances as civil disobedience.

Rosa Parks, who died yesterday, was violating a law by refusing to give up her seat. Yet who today would argue that what she was doing was immoral? I’d submit very few would.

The U.S. Revolutionary War was fought and won “illegally”. And yet, today, the participants are celebrated as heroes. Had they lost, they’d have been vilified as instigators of a civil war.

It’s an interesting thing. It seems like you have to break a law in order to challenge it. At what point is breaking that law justified? It seems as if many of our most bitterly-fought legal battles involve some question as to whether those laws are malum in se or malum prohibitum. The ones that come to mind are abortion laws, church/state separation issues, freedom of speech… core stuff.

JOHN PROCTOR IS DEAD – or – You can never go back again – UPDATED

Boy oh boy did I love Wayward Sun. Despite the fact that they were just essentially a teen garage band, they were my favorite band in High School, the way some people loved Nirvana or Billy Joel. But now certain members of the band have kind of said “no thanks, we’ve done that”. I didn’t get it. You have a chance now to take what you were good at in High School, iron out the kinks, and make it better. Why not do that?

I get it now.

Boy oh boy did I love Wayward Sun. Despite the fact that they were just essentially a teen garage band, they were my favorite band in High School, the way some people loved Nirvana or Billy Joel. But now certain members of the band have kind of said “no thanks, we’ve done that”. I didn’t get it. You have a chance now to take what you were good at in High School, iron out the kinks, and make it better. Why not do that?

I get it now. In 1993, I played onstage, in my senior year, the role of John Proctor in Quince Orchard’s production of “The Crucible”. It got me a lot of credibility, I did a great job, and it galvanized my desire to act. Despite this, it was a high school play, I didn’t know crap about life, and it was ultimately a flawed performance.

Last weekend, I auditioned for Reston Players’ production of “The Crucible”. I wanted to play hale, but my Proctor was good enough in an audition to get me called back repeatedly once again for the lead. I was ecstatic, and for much of the audition, it seemed clear that the role was mine. As we neared the end though, we got to the meatier scenes, and I was doing passionate, precise redings.. that were a little out of context of what was going on. Thinking back, I was doing the same line readings I had done at the age of 17, and looking for the same responses. I never got them.

I did not get Proctor. I barely read for Hale. This production of the Crucible will roll along without me, and perhaps its just as well. I’ll be doing another play or film soon.. something that is new to me. As an artist, I have committed to doing new work. Taking something someone else made and making it my own. I already did my Proctor.. and doing it again would be doing an imitation of myself.. a remake.

So for me, the dream of playing Proctor again sometime is dead.. you can’t go back again. Maybe you shouldn’t. Maybe for me Hale should always belong to Mike Lanahan, Proctor should always be a teenager trying his best to impress his friends and detractors.. Maybe the best version of “All Over again” will always be the one on “The Right Of Way” – and maybe that has less to do with intrinsic quality, and more to do with what it meant way back when.