Down in the dumps… what do you do?

Everybody seems to have unique coping strategies for those times when you’re stressed to the max. Christy and I are definitely at that point at the moment: trying to close on a new house, get our old one sold, get packed, take care of kids who are turning into teenagers early, and the looming prospect of unemployment when my contract is done.

Me, I de-stress sometimes by playing video games. Used to be that I’d go running, and that helped (though it killed my knees at the time since I was forty pounds heavier).

What do you do to de-stress?

Everybody seems to have unique coping strategies for those times when you’re stressed to the max. Christy and I are definitely at that point at the moment: trying to close on a new house, get our old one sold, get packed, take care of kids who are turning into teenagers early, and the looming prospect of unemployment when my contract is done.

Me, I de-stress sometimes by playing video games. Used to be that I’d go running, and that helped (though it killed my knees at the time since I was forty pounds heavier).

What do you do to de-stress?

Is the Rapture driving U.S. foreign policy?

George Monbiot writes a chilling piece today, called Apocalypse Please. It details the effect a radical fundamentalist Christian belief is having on U.S. foreign policy. Disaster awaits… or does it? What do you think?

Local copy below; please see the original for other articles by Monbiot.

George Monbiot writes a chilling piece today, called Apocalypse Please. It details the effect a radical fundamentalist Christian belief is having on U.S. foreign policy. Disaster awaits… or does it? What do you think?

Local copy below; please see the original for other articles by Monbiot.


religion / Apocalypse Please

Apocalypse Please

    US policy towards the Middle East is driven by a rarefied form of madness. It’s time we took it seriously.

    By George Monbiot. Published in the Guardian 20th April 2004

    To understand what is happening in the Middle East, you must first understand what is happening in Texas. To understand what is happening there, you should read the resolutions passed at the state’s Republican party conventions last month. Take a look, for example, at the decisions made in Harris County, which covers much of Houston.1

    The delegates began by nodding through a few uncontroversial matters: homosexuality is contrary to the truths ordained by God; “any mechanism to process, license, record, register or monitor the ownership of guns” should be repealed; income tax, inheritance tax, capital gains tax and corporation tax should be abolished; and immigrants should be deterred by electric fences.2 Thus fortified, they turned to the real issue: the affairs of a small state 7000 miles away. It was then, according to a participant, that the “screaming and near fistfights” began.

    I don’t know what the original motion said, but apparently it was “watered down significantly” as a result of the shouting match. The motion they adopted stated that Israel has an undivided claim to Jerusalem and the West Bank, that Arab states should be pressured to absorb refugees from Palestine, and that Israel should do whatever it wishes in seeking to eliminate terrorism.3 Good to see that the extremists didn’t prevail then.

    But why should all this be of such pressing interest to the people of a state which is seldom celebrated for its fascination with foreign affairs? The explanation is slowly becoming familiar to us, but we still have some difficulty in taking it seriously.

    In the United States, several million people have succumbed to an extraordinary delusion. In the 19th century, two immigrant preachers cobbled together a series of unrelated passages from the Bible to create what appears to be a consistent narrative: Jesus will return to earth when certain preconditions have been met. The first of these was the establishment of a state of Israel. The next involves Israel’s occupation of the rest of its “Biblical lands” (most of the Middle East), and the rebuilding of the Third Temple on the site now occupied by the Dome of the Rock and Al-Aqsa mosques. The legions of the Antichrist will then be deployed against Israel, and their war will lead to a final showdown in the valley of Armageddon. The Jews will either burn or convert to Christianity, and the Messiah will return to earth.

    What makes the story so appealing to Christian fundamentalists is that before the big battle begins, all “true believers” (ie those who believe what THEY believe) will be lifted out of their clothes and wafted up to heaven during an event called the Rapture. Not only do the worthy get to sit at the right hand of God, but they will be able to watch, from the best seats, their political and religious opponents being devoured by boils, sores, locusts and frogs, during the seven years of Tribulation which follow.

    The true believers are now seeking to bring all this about. This means staging confrontations at the old temple site (in 2000 three US Christians were deported for trying to blow up the mosques there)4, sponsoring Jewish settlements in the occupied territories, demanding ever more US support for Israel, and seeking to provoke a final battle with the Muslim world/Axis of Evil/United Nations/European Union/France or whoever the legions of the Antichrist turn out to be.

    The believers are convinced that they will soon be rewarded for their efforts. The Antichrist is apparently walking among us, in the guise of Kofi Annan, Javier Solana, Yasser Arafat or, more plausibly, Silvio Berlusconi.5 The Walmart corporation is also a candidate (in my view a very good one), because it wants to radio-tag its stock, thereby exposing humankind to the Mark of the Beast.6 By clicking on www.raptureready.com, you can discover how close you might be to flying out of your pyjamas. The infidels among us should take note that the Rapture Index currently stands at 144, just one point below the critical threshold, beyond which the sky will be filled with floating nudists. Beast Government, Wild Weather and Israel are all trading at the maximum five points (the EU is debating its constitution, there was a freak hurricane in the South Atlantic, Hamas has sworn to avenge the killing of its leaders), but the second coming is currently being delayed by an unfortunate decline in drug abuse among teenagers and a weak showing by the Antichrist (both of which score only two).

    We can laugh at these people, but we should not dismiss them. That their beliefs are bonkers does not mean they are marginal. American pollsters believe that between 15 and 18% of US voters belong to churches or movements which subscribe to these teachings.7 A survey in 1999 suggested that this figure included 33% of Republicans.8 The best-selling contemporary books in the United States are the 12 volumes of the Left Behind series, which provide what is usually described as a “fictionalised” account of the Rapture (this, apparently, distinguishes it from the other one), with plenty of dripping details about what will happen to the rest of us. The people who believe all this don’t believe it just a little; for them it is a matter of life eternal and death.

    And among them are some of the most powerful men in America. John Ashcroft, the attorney-general, is a true believer, so are several prominent senators and the House majority leader, Tom DeLay. Mr DeLay (who is also the co-author of the marvellously-named DeLay-Doolittle Amendment, postponing campaign finance reforms) travelled to Israel last year to tell the Knesset that “there is no middle ground, no moderate position worth taking.”9

    So here we have a major political constituency – representing much of the current president’s core vote – in the most powerful nation on earth, which is actively seeking to provoke a new world war. Its members see the invasion of Iraq as a warm-up act, as Revelations (9:14-15) maintains that four angels “which are bound in the great river Euphrates” will be released “to slay the third part of men.” They batter down the doors of the White House as soon as its support for Israel wavers: when Bush asked Ariel Sharon to pull his tanks out of Jenin in 2002, he received 100,000 angry emails from Christian fundamentalists, and never mentioned the matter again.10

    The electoral calculation, crazy as it appears, works like this. Governments stand or fall on domestic issues. For 85% of the US electorate, the Middle East is a foreign issue, and therefore of secondary interest when they enter the polling booth. For 15% of the electorate, the Middle East is not just a domestic matter, it’s a personal one: if the president fails to start a conflagration there, his core voters don’t get to sit at the right hand of God. Bush, in other words, stands to lose fewer votes by encouraging Israeli aggression than he stands to lose by restraining it. He would be mad to listen to these people. He would also be mad not to.

    George Monbiot’s book The Age of Consent: a manifesto for a new world order is now published in paperback.

    www.monbiot.com

    References:

    1. http://www.harriscountygop.com/sections/sdconv/sdconv.asp

    2. eg. Committee on Resolutions, Harris County Republican Party, 27th March 2004. Final report of Senatorial District 17 Convention. http://www.harriscountygop.com/sections/sdconv/sdconv.asp

    3. ibid.

    4. Paul Vallely, 7th September 2003. The Eve of Destruction. The Independent on Sunday.

    5. eg. http://www.raptureready.us

    6. eg. http://www.raptureready.com/rap16.html (note: 5 and 6 are rival sites)

    7. Megan K. Stack, 31st July 2003. House’s DeLay Bonds With Israeli Hawks, Los Angeles Times; Matthew Engel, 28th October 2002. Meet the new Zionists. The Guardian; Paul Vallely, ibid.

    8. Donald E. Wagner, 28th June 2003. Marching to Zion: the evangelical-Jewish alliance. Christian Century.

    9. Leader, 1st August 2003. DeLay’s Foreign Meddling. Los Angeles Times.

    10. Jane Lampman, 18th February 2004. The End of the World. The Christian Science Monitor.

20th April 2004

Geek to Mechanic!

He did it! Matt successfully fixed the van. Though it took a week due to regular work and bad weather, our family transportation is back on the road.

We have to give a big thank you to our friend and neighbor Paul, who is also a computer geek, but has realized the great need to be mechanical. Matt was inspired by Paul and decided it was time to save some $$ by learning to do it himself.

The exciting thing is, the cost of the tools and the cost of replacing several parts was probably less than half of the cost of having a shop replace just the one part–an $8 timing belt plus $400+ in time. Yeah!

He did it! Matt successfully fixed the van. Though it took a week due to regular work and bad weather, our family transportation is back on the road.

We have to give a big thank you to our friend and neighbor Paul, who is also a computer geek, but has realized the great need to be mechanical. Matt was inspired by Paul and decided it was time to save some $$ by learning to do it himself.

The exciting thing is, the cost of the tools and the cost of replacing several parts was probably less than half of the cost of having a shop replace just the one part–an $8 timing belt plus $400+ in time. Yeah!

Congratulations Matt, on a job well done.

GIVING UP THE GHOST – OR – LEAVE IT ALL BEHIND, YEAH, YEAH, YEAH

Did we give up the ghost for the promise of financial comfort?

“We wanted to make it big, we wanted to follow all our dreams, we wanted music to take us away”…Not everything Wayward Sun did was quite so profound, but there was a sad prophecy that seemed to accompany that bridge… and it always resonated with me.

Did we give up the ghost?

I am an actor, and I’m good at it, and I still plan to “take my shot”.. but 30 is less than 2 years away, and suddenly it seems frighteningly like that shot will be hard to hit. As a “side career”, I’ve given 3 years of my life to nursing school – allowing me to pay my mortgage.. and I’m not alone. Lawyers, System Admins, Nurses, there are those here who had very different dreams 10 years ago.

Did we give up the ghost for the promise of financial comfort?

“We wanted to make it big, we wanted to follow all our dreams, we wanted music to take us away”…Not everything Wayward Sun did was quite so profound, but there was a sad prophecy that seemed to accompany that bridge… and it always resonated with me.

Did we give up the ghost?

I am an actor, and I’m good at it, and I still plan to “take my shot”.. but 30 is less than 2 years away, and suddenly it seems frighteningly like that shot will be hard to hit. As a “side career”, I’ve given 3 years of my life to nursing school – allowing me to pay my mortgage.. and I’m not alone. Lawyers, System Admins, Nurses, there are those here who had very different dreams 10 years ago.

Did we give up the ghost – or is there hope that somehow we’ll have enough money to be able to reemerge as players in our original field while the people who kept trying to grab that brass ring called fame.. starve as experienced waiters?

I’m not ready to give up the ghost just yet, but its shadow looms over me with every birthday.. every friend who decides its easier to take a “real job”.. and every friend who moves to L.A… and every friend who moves back because it never worked out.

Ghost stories always did scare me, this is no exception.

Division

The following story, while based on facts, has had details embellished in the interest of readability.

Thin fog hung gray and trembling over the barren landscape. Short trees,
no taller than a man, squatted thirstily like unmoving dwarf sentinels
watching the dawn rise over the low, cracked hills. The scent of sulfur
lay reluctantly in the hollows, wishing for a breeze to scoop it out, while
blades of grass clung tenaciously to small patches of wind-deposited soil
in the gaping cracks of hard lava rocks.

The following story, while based on facts, has had details embellished in the interest of readability.

Thin fog hung gray and trembling over the barren landscape. Short trees, no taller than a man, squatted thirstily like unmoving dwarf sentinels watching the dawn rise over the low, cracked hills. The scent of sulfur lay reluctantly in the hollows, wishing for a breeze to scoop it out, while blades of grass clung tenaciously to small patches of wind-deposited soil in the gaping cracks of hard lava rocks.

In the midst of this wasteland is an oasis of civilization braced against the dawn’s early light. The most prominent feature of this city is a swift, wide river neatly bisecting it, its banks paved to prevent erosion into the tightly-packed houses beside it. Rows of neat red brick homes, steel-sided factories, gardens, and open-air shopping malls stood side-by-side on the streets of this bustling city.

It was not bustling today.

From a distance, it would be difficult to see what’s wrong. It would be difficult to notice the lack of people in the streets; at this time of day, the sleepy town would normally have few pedestrians, anyway. It would be difficult to discern that school was not in session, for the children would usually be indoors. It would be difficult to point out the gaps between houses where rubble lay instead of factories. It would be difficult to see the bloodstains in the streets where men, women, and children lay dying the day before.

It is not difficult to hear the crack of gunfire, droning of tank engines, and explosions of mortar fire.


The city’s name is Division. The name came from a different era, when the single river that flowed through the town divided at that point. Over time, development altered the flow of the river and confined its banks to the set course which it has followed for the past hundred years. The city has since been noted mainly for its profusion of cathedrals: over 200 for a population of nearly 300,000. One very large church for every 1,500 people.

That’s a heck of a lot of cathedrals. And they’re not cookie-cutter boxes, either. Each is a work of art, with a rich history and intricate design.

Whether the population is religious due to the profusion of churches, or if the large number of churches is due to an extraordinarily religious population is a matter of some debate for the residents. What is a fact, though, is that the city is at the heart of worship in the area, home to large contingents of several major religious factions.

Located 49 miles from the capitol of the state, the city has long been overshadowed by its larger neighbor. It enjoyed quiet prosperity under the governor, and boasted that several of the governor’s advisors were raised in the area.

Division has had troubles over the last thirteen years, though. A bomb set by foreign nationals, intended to destroy a bridge spanning the impassable river, instead killed dozens of people shopping in a marketplace nearby. The town’s largest employer was shut down when it was discovered that, in addition to the normal consumer goods it was supposed to produce, it was also manufacturing illegal weapons. Loots and rioting in the wake of a regime change in the capitol had left much of the city’s infrastructure in shambles.

But the city was recovering. Locals elected a new mayor, who was known to be on good terms with the current regime. They hoped that this election would prevent the new power’s mostly foreign police forces from occupying the city.

Their hope was in vain. The new police moved into the former headquarters of the old regime, and, if rumors were to be believed, immediately began harassing residents, paying residents to spy on their neighbors, and making life difficult for the townspeople. Neighbors began disappearing without warning, then resurfacing with stories of uncomfortable interrogations, and more of the locals became very concerned.

Several hundred residents held a meeting at a local school to decide what, if anything, they should do about the occupation. Most walked out of the meeting deciding to do nothing to interfere. A few, many of them well-known local leaders and religious figures, decided to stage a protest.

Unfortunately, some of them decided to conceal firearms under their clothing for the demonstration.

The new police forces, of course, were interested in the proceedings and in maintaining order at the demonstration, smoking and jabbering at one another in their foreign language as they lounged by their jeeps.

Predictably, either an armed protestor or an armed policeman drew a weapon.

Predictably, someone pulled a trigger.

After the smoke cleared, fifteen protestors lay dead or dying on the ground. Most of the dead were unarmed. None of the trained and battle-hardened police soldiers were injured, while sixty-five protestors were hurt in the firefight.

Outraged residents didn’t know what to do. To stage further protests seemed folly, and would invite more killing. To do nothing would be to approve of the actions of police. A few decided to take matters into their own hands.

Several veterans of the protest massacre were hungry for blood. Only a few were desparate enough to attempt revenge for the atrocity, however, and planned a bold move.

The occupying police force was accustomed to hiring mercenaries to guard their supply caravans. These mercenaries, though armed and many ex-soldiers, were easier targets than the regulars responsible for the shootings at the school.

They decided to take some of the mercenaries hostage in exchange for release of their disappeared neighbors, and an apology from the ruling regime. It seemed a simple plan: drop a couple of hand grenades beneath a parked mercenary truck, disabling it. Surround the truck, force the men inside to come out, film them using a hand-held video camera, and present demands. It was desparate, but the men saw their situation as being desparate. The outsiders were destroying their way of life, providing easy liquor for the youth, promoting acceptance of pornography, and getting away scot-free with shooting nearly a hundred people at a peaceful protest rally.

Word of their plan leaked out, and they found themselves followed by others who claimed that they “wanted to help”. The plan worked at first, but the grisly end of that episode has been widely publicized. Even teenagers participated in the gruesome murder and mutilation of the four mercenaries in that vehicle, while thousands more looked on and either did nothing, or approved of the atrocity.

The name of the city of Division, in Arabic, is pronounced Fallujah.


Today, the city is under siege by U.S. forces. Roads into and out of it are blocked, and U.S. officials are demanding the surrender of those responsible for the killings. The U.S. has lost around sixty soldiers in attempting to retake the town as of this writing; around 600 residents of the city of Division are now buried in mass graves as a result of the fighting. Townspeople had to convert soccer fields into graveyards to handle the dead, and more dying are piling up every day.

The question of the moment is: what to do? Conservatives are screaming for blood, some demanding that the city be carpet-bombed into oblivion after leafletting the populace to instruct them to leave and go through U.S. checkpoints for inspection on the roads out. Liberals are demanding we leave the country, calling it “ungovernable”. Many moderates think we’re in for a lengthy occupation, on the order of the next 30-40 years, similar to that required to subdue Germany after World War II.

What do you think?

21st-century telekenisis?

I ran across an amazing article bringing light to new developments in technology enablers for disabled people. Doctors map out brain activity as patients “think about” performing a certain function: moving an arm, for instance. After isolating the brain area patients use for various functions, they can then implant electrodes into those areas of the brain to monitor when the brain is active in that area, and set up machines or computers to perform the requested task.

I ran across an amazing article bringing light to new developments in technology enablers for disabled people. Doctors map out brain activity as patients “think about” performing a certain function: moving an arm, for instance. After isolating the brain area patients use for various functions, they can then implant electrodes into those areas of the brain to monitor when the brain is active in that area, and set up machines or computers to perform the requested task.

It’s misleading to say such technologies “read minds” … What happens is you provide the brain with the opportunity to develop a new skill.

–Dr. Jonathan Wolpaw

I still think it’s an amazing advance. We now know enough about brain activity to be able to map certain types of activity to actions outside the body. Mind over matter, indeed! Although I think that, as mentioned at the bottom of the article, outside-the-brain monitoring may eventually be as effective as implants at reducing thought to action, for the time being this is simply an awesome advance towards enabling handicapped people to live a more normal life.

Now that we can translate some thoughts into action, the next step is to translate actions into a direct-feed into my brain, so that I can learn Kung-Fu in seconds instead of a lifetime…

Wayward Sun Live!

Boy, are you guys in for a treat. Over the weekend I was digging through some old cassettes and found a treasure trove of old Wayward Sun material – stuff I didn’t even know I had. This is all material from the early days of WS – I think they’re all from early 1991, but perhaps Matt and Sam can help with some of the details. Enjoy!

(Note: I apologize for the quality of some of these recordings. They’re cassette copies of my dad’s old videotapes — you can hear Sam’s mom clapping, my dad talking, and other things which distract from the sound of the band. Ah well.)

ROCK BASH — Yes, that’s right, I found a recording of the Montgomery County Rock Bash. A packed house, screaming fans, etc. If memory serves, this concert was in March or April of 1991.

Boy, are you guys in for a treat. Over the weekend I was digging through some old cassettes and found a treasure trove of old Wayward Sun material – stuff I didn’t even know I had. This is all material from the early days of WS – I think they’re all from early 1991, but perhaps Matt and Sam can help with some of the details. Enjoy!

(Note: I apologize for the quality of some of these recordings. They’re cassette copies of my dad’s old videotapes — you can hear Sam’s mom clapping, my dad talking, and other things which distract from the sound of the band. Ah well.)

ROCK BASH — Yes, that’s right, I found a recording of the Montgomery County Rock Bash. A packed house, screaming fans, etc. If memory serves, this concert was in March or April of 1991.

  • Wayward Sun – The theme song never sounded better. I remember that Kevin had borrowed somebody’s drumset with a double bass drum – his solo sounded totally phat. (mp3, streaming)
  • For What It’s Worth – One of our most popular covers in the early years. Humorously enough, we never bothered to figure out all the words of the Buffalo Springfield original – most of this is stuff Sam made up. Listen for Jen Wolfe screaming, “Matt, I have hot pants for you!” (mp3, streaming)
  • You Know This Guy, He’s Always There – Also known as “The Sky Is Always There”. Good harmonies. Nobody writes good ballads anymore. (mp3, streaming)
  • Madness – I still like this song after all these years. So much fun to play live. And this recording is funny because of Sam & Matt’s failed attempt at the “The union boys are coming to close us down” line from Steven Banks, which wouldn’t have been funny anyway since we were the only people who got the joke. (mp3, streaming)

Stream the entire Rock Bash!

Liberty High School Concert – I’d forgotten we did this concert until I found this tape. This is a concert we did at my high school about a month after the Rock Bash, the week that TAFTFT came out. It was a benefit for something or other, I think, and it was basically a disaster. No one but a group of about 10 fans (which was mostly family) had a positive reaction – most of the audience was rude and obnoxious, waiting for Stranger Than Fiction, the headliners, to play.

  • Wrong Words – Kevin had broken a finger, so he had his hand taped up and couldn’t play the piano, so therefore this is the only time we played Wrong Words with drums. Notice that start the second verse with the wrong keyboard sound. Ah well. (mp3, streaming)
  • Pressure – No wonder they didn’t like us – it was 1991, the golden age of Nirvana and Pearl Jam, and we were playing a Billy Joel cover from 1983. 😉 Additionally, it was way too low for me to sing! Oh well, it still sounded good. (mp3, streaming)
  • Compulsive Fire – An early look into a WS classic. This is apparently before we wrote the bridge and the third verse. Sounds pretty good actually. (mp3, streaming)
  • Just A Moment Away From You – I had completely forgotten that we’d EVER played this song live. And you know, it doesn’t sound half bad. Featuring Tim Miller on French Horn, who, oddly enough, was found dead in his apartment at the age of 24 – no idea what happened. Note: There’s about 3 seconds of empty space in the middle of the track, when the tape flipped over. (mp3, streaming)
  • All Over Again – Another early look into a WS classic. Bears very little resemblance to the track that eventually made it onto The Right of Way. I think it sounds a lot better with Sam singing lead than with me. On backup vocals were Dani (my then-girlfriend, now-wife) and my sister Katy, although Katy’s mic was turned off, so you can’t hear her. (mp3, streaming)
  • On My Way – Still sounds good after all these years. And now, my attempt at the “The union boys are coming to close us down” line – still not funny. This is before we were using a bass regularly, so I would take the mic and work the crowd (oy). Hey Matt, what’s a headrun? (mp3, streaming)

Stream the entire Liberty High Concert!

Basement Band – Two tracks from a “practice” concert we did in the basement of my house in February 1991.

  • Pushing Us Down – A basically improvised live version that starts out strong and almost completely unravels by the end. A good illustration of why we never performed this song live. (mp3, streaming)
  • Sad Anger – This song came up on one of the other Wayward Sun threads. I’d completely forgotten it even existed, and here I find a live version of it! (mp3, streaming)

Stream both tracks

It occurs to me that the four of us were between the ages of 15 and 17 at the time. Can you believe we were ever that young?

Fixing Cars

Sorry to be slow posting here this week; the Timing Belt on my 1994 Mercury Villager broke. It’s my own fault, really. When we bought it, we received no user’s manual, and I didn’t purchase one. We were supposed to have replaced the timing belt at 105,000 miles, and our odometer is now somewhere north of 160,000 miles.

The engine and transmission are the same as are found in the Nissan Pathfinder, with a difference: they are mounted over-under and sideways to facilitate front-wheel drive. What it means in practice is that in several areas, I have less than an inch of clearance to remove parts trying to get to the timing belt. I subscribed to AllDataDIY so I could get the technical specs on my engine, and it’s slightly helpful, but definitely no silver bullet to figuring it all out.

Sorry to be slow posting here this week; the Timing Belt on my 1994 Mercury Villager broke. It’s my own fault, really. When we bought it, we received no user’s manual, and I didn’t purchase one. We were supposed to have replaced the timing belt at 105,000 miles, and our odometer is now somewhere north of 160,000 miles.

The engine and transmission are the same as are found in the Nissan Pathfinder, with a difference: they are mounted over-under and sideways to facilitate front-wheel drive. What it means in practice is that in several areas, I have less than an inch of clearance to remove parts trying to get to the timing belt. I subscribed to AllDataDIY so I could get the technical specs on my engine, and it’s slightly helpful, but definitely no silver bullet to figuring it all out.

While I’ve got it open, I’m hoping to replace the water pump as well. I’m feeling like a mechanic; I should have taken a picture of myself up to my elbows in black grease last night! What it means in practice, though, is that I’m pushing slightly late on my workday getting this blog entry up, and probably won’t be posting more until Thursday. In the meantime, anybody feel like picking up the slack?

Being two

Among the many things that come with terrible two’s there are a few cute things as well. Elijah is our blanket boy. If I recall correctly, he would be Linus who always drags around his blanket on the cartoon, Charlie Brown.

A year ago, if anyone touched Elijah’s blanket, he threw a fit. This became a bit of a game among my family when we visited them. Gathered in a circle around Elijah and his blanket, everyone would reach ever so quietly to touch his blanket and see if he’d notice. At that time he called his blanket a “BT” and would tell everyone, “No BT.”

Somehow over the past year a change has occurred. He now trusts me, his mother, with his blanket, which he now calls “bakey.” If he’s headed to the table he’ll hand it to me for safe keeping. On occasion he has even shared his blanket with baby Joshua! I was shocked by this gesture as he covered up his little brother with his own blanket.

Among the many things that come with terrible two’s there are a few cute things as well. Elijah is our blanket boy. If I recall correctly, he would be Linus who always drags around his blanket on the cartoon, Charlie Brown.

A year ago, if anyone touched Elijah’s blanket, he threw a fit. This became a bit of a game among my family when we visited them. Gathered in a circle around Elijah and his blanket, everyone would reach ever so quietly to touch his blanket and see if he’d notice. At that time he called his blanket a “BT” and would tell everyone, “No BT.”

Somehow over the past year a change has occurred. He now trusts me, his mother, with his blanket, which he now calls “bakey.” If he’s headed to the table he’ll hand it to me for safe keeping. On occasion he has even shared his blanket with baby Joshua! I was shocked by this gesture as he covered up his little brother with his own blanket.

I believe all of us in our home are hands on learners. One of the charactersitics of such is liking textures. That is one of the best parts of that blanket for Elijah. To comfort himself, he will take the knotted yard between his little fingers and rub it under his nose. I’ve always thought this was a bit funny because my dad would do something like that to us kids when we were little to tickle and tease us. But Elijah does it for pleasure and comfort.

So one day last week I was holding Elijah and his blanket on my lap. He grabbed the yarn as usual and offered to rub my nose. I laughed out loud, but this gesture must have been one of great love for his mom! Now as he runs through my house in a whirl wind of holy terror, I have a knowledge that he loves me.

Declassified 6 August 2001 PDB

For the interested, here’s the text of the declassified August 6, 2001 PDB (Presidential Daily Briefing). This was the “hot-topic” subject of some of testimony by Condoleeza Rice before the 9/11 commission.

Here are some interesting quotes by Rice on this doc:

  • “Commissioner, this was not a warning.”
  • “It did not warn of attacks inside the United States.”
  • “…this was not threat-reporting about what was about to happen.”

I’ll let you decide. My goal in posting this is to create an online HTML archive of the release, which has only been available as a PDF up until now. However, it’s interesting to me how fuzzy the definition of truth is in politics…

For the interested, here’s the text of the declassified August 6, 2001 PDB (Presidential Daily Briefing). This was the “hot-topic” subject of some of testimony by Condoleeza Rice before the 9/11 commission.

Here are some interesting quotes by Rice on this doc:

  • “Commissioner, this was not a warning.”
  • “It did not warn of attacks inside the United States.”
  • “…this was not threat-reporting about what was about to happen.”

I’ll let you decide. My goal in posting this is to create an online HTML archive of the release, which has only been available as a PDF up until now. However, it’s interesting to me how fuzzy the definition of truth is in politics…


Declassified and Approved
for Release, 10 April 2004

Bin Ladin Determined To Strike in US


Clandestine, foreign government, and media reports indicate Bin Ladin since 1997 has wanted to conduct terrorist attacks in the US. Bin Ladin implied in US television interviews in 1997 and 1998 that his followers would follow the example of World Trade Center bomber Ramzi Yousef and “bring the fighting to America.”

After US missile strikes on his base in Afghanistan in 1998, Bin Ladin told followers he wanted to retaliate in Washington, according to a <censored> service.

An Egyptian Islamic Jihad (EIJ) operative told an <censored> service at the same time that Bin Ladin was planning to exploit the operative’s access to the US to mount a terrorist strike.

The millennium plotting in Canada in 1999 may have been part of Bin Ladin’s first serious attempt to implement a terrorist strike in the US. Convicted plotter Ahmed Ressam has told the FBI that he conceived the idea to attack Los Angeles International Airport himself, but that Bin Ladin lieutenant Abu Zubaydah encouraged him and helped facilitate the operation. Ressam also said that in 1998 Abu Zubaydah was planning his own US attack.

Ressam says Bin Ladin was aware of the Los Angeles operation.

Although Bin Ladin has not succeeded, his attacks against the US Embassies in Kenya and Tanzania in 1998 demonstrates that he prepares operations years in advance and is not deterred by setbacks. Bin Ladin associates surveilled our Embassies in Nairobi and Dar es Salaam as early as 1993, and some members of the Nairobi cell planning the bombings were arrested and deported in 1997.

Al-Qa’ida members — including some who are US citizens — have resided in or traveled to the US for years, and the group apparently maintains a support structure that could aid attacks. Two al-Qa’ida members found guilty in the conspiracy to bomb our Embassies in East Africa were US citizens, and a senior EIJ member lived in California in the mid-1990’s.

A clandestine source said in 1998 that a Bin Ladin cell in New York was recruiting Muslim-American youth for attacks.

We have not been able to corroborate some of the more sensational threat reporting, such as that from a <censored> service in 1998 saying that Bin Ladin wanted to hijack a US aircraft to gain the release of “Blind Shaykh” ‘Umar ‘Abd al-Rahman and other US-held extremists.

Nevertheless, FBI information since that time indicates patterns of suspicious activity in this country consistent with preparations for hijackings or other types of attacks, including recent surveillance of federal buildings in New York.

The FBI is conducting approximately 70 full field investigations throughout the US that it considers Bin Ladin-related. CIA and the FBI are investigating a call to our Embassy in the UAE in May saying that a group of Bin Ladin supporters was in the US planning attacks with explosives.